Life is Happening Now
I’m sorry I have been neglecting my blog. I have been struggling with my anxiety and it’s been hard adjusting to life after high school. I want to be a writer and I have been accepted into writing programs at university but I’m not ready to go yet. This has been really difficult for me. I have said this before but 2024 was a stressful year. I have a feeling 2025 will be better. I was so happy after Australia and then I was disappointed with all the necessary steps that I need to do to start my adult adventure. I am proud to say that I am starting to feel better. I’m working hard at typing and other skills. I am starting to see improvement and want to improve even more. I think that when I am stressed I stress out everyone. Oh what a wonderful awesome surprise that even my parents get anxious. Oh that sounds awful but I needed to know that I am not alone in anxiety and that my parents truly understand what I am going through. I don’t want them stressing over me, but I know that they will always stress over me that’s what parents do. Especially parents of disabled adults who are dependent upon them.
I am so determined to be able to afford to take care of myself to help their stress level. However it is very hard for disabled people to make money. Being disabled is expensive. Even with financial medical support . And we get disability benefits but we have to report income and subtract from support. A system which barely covers life expenses and is designed to keep disabled people from saving money. I believe I can support myself but I need to find away that I can do it.
I should say that this is so scary. I don’t know how to actually start making any grounds towards this. Especially since I am still working on becoming a better typer before I start university. Let me say something about my sadness. I’m feeling happy with my life but also when I see anxiety taking over, I feel so sad. I can’t stop the aching . Because it’s just too hard to see what I want from life happening. I think I am finally feeling better because I started to realize that life is just one go. That this is who I am and I achieve more and I feel better and I have more fun when I stay positive and actually enjoy the moments.
Enjoy the day, enjoy the sunshine, enjoy the experience. I love the experience.
We went on a last minute trip to Victoria. We explored, swam, and did not worry about life. I loved it. I am an explorer. I am so proud of me. I’m doing better, I’m working hard and I’m so awesome. I’m Scott, I’m deatblind, I’m short and I’m not common people. I’m me and I love me. I also love my family and friends. Thank you all!