Sweet Dreams
I am excited again. I’m feeling so much better with sleep and I’m able to concentrate and be productive. I should explain. I have a lot of trouble falling asleep. I have so much stuff in my head that I am constantly thinking about and I just can’t clear my mind to enable myself to relax enough to fall asleep. I don’t sleep at all some nights. I have always, well since I was about 6, had trouble sleeping. Last year was the absolute worst year for sleep. I tried everything, but nothing helped me. I would start falling asleep and then I would suddenly spring back awake. It was awful. My ability to do anything practically stopped. I couldn’t stay awake during the day and I couldn’t sleep at night. But, I was too tired to do much at night either. Not that there was much to do at 3am. I am so happy that sleep is back. I have a life again. What an awesome feeling.
I worked hard on sleep. I have allowed myself to stop thinking about all the things happening, or yet to happen. I need to switch off. What a hard thing to do. But so necessary for a awesome life. I tried so many things to go to sleep, the only thing that worked was learning to stop thinking about the stuff keeping me awake. This is hard to do, at least it is for me. I spend time before bed organizing my thoughts. I try to resolve what ever is in my head before I get into bed. This way when I lay down, my mind is clear from all the urgent matters that clog my mind and doesn't let me sleep.
I'm enjoying 2025 because I'm awake at the right time to enjoy the day. which has relieved my stress levels which has also given me less stress to resolve at night, which means even more sleep.
I had an awesome birthday. I'm so grateful that I have such great friends. I wanted a special day and they were able to enjoy it with me. I will say that I am writing this post with a big smile. I had the best day with the best people. The awesome day, really made me appreciate all the awesome people in my life. It also has motivated me to try harder to not take the easy way but to work for my goals and to always be a good person.
What a harsh world right now. I'm not going to waiver in my integrity and I'm going to continue to improve myself and live my best life. I am so glad that I have good people in my life to surround myself with kindness. Not enough people in the world have this, and it really shows.